Claimed By Grace

I had an extremely great pregnancy with Zoey. I had no complications and even had a fantastic delivery... A bit fast and I pushed way to hard but I had a beautiful little girl and that's all I cares about.

I first felt something wasn't quite right at the hospital maybe a day after delivery.

I was checked and sent home with no complications.

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Fast forward six months. I started experiencing pain in my lower abdomen and started noticing fecal matter in my urine. At first it was a little bit but it increased.

I went to my doctor and she told me I had a rectal-vaginal fistula. Which is basically when I pushed for Zoey I pushed too hard and in my muscles formed a small hole. Its actually pretty common with women giving birth so my doctor told me it wouldn't take much to fix.

Fast forward two years.... After seeing 6 doctors in Ottawa each telling me that it was out side of their scope and being in the worst pain of my life I moved to Sudbury and within a month I had a surgeon who is amazing and had a MRI and CT scan booked.

Fast forward to yesterday. I have to have three surgeries... The first is this one to get my ostomy bag. Its name is princess peachy poo.

The second will be in three months to repair the actual issues and the third will be to remove the ostomy.

Its been a really long lonely painful journey.
Not many people have known about my journey because it is embarrassing and gross and to put yourself on display is hard.

But I'm learning something huge... First it's not my fault or zoeys fault... Its apart of life and yes it sucks I have learned how to deal with it.

Second...the more I talk about it the more freeing it becomes. And yes people are going to judge and have their opinions...but I don't care.

This is my journey to get healthy and have another baby part of it is my emotional healing.

I serve an amazing God who heals and provides and protects.
My future is in his hands. 💓

Xoxo

Jess